I passed school a few weeks back with A+ grade. (Thank you God! I love you tooo!) And got admission in best college of Lahore (Yayie!). I used to get horrible, truly horrible nightmares before my result. I got this super awful nightmare in which I was running alone in an isolated, scary jungle and suddenly a disgusting crow jerked my marks sheet full of gooey blood at my face and once I dreamt that people are laughing hysterically at me because I got a C grade.
Then before the announcement of merit list of the college that I wanted to get admitted to, I used to get dreams like I am walking slowly and dreamily inside that beautiful college, feeling the 100 years old building against my bare hands and the security guard asked me very rudely to back off cause I aint the student of that college, I once dreamt that I walk inside the college and hide somewhere but the police came and dragged me out of the college, and I almost woke up crying.(Lol shit!) Or, I walk inside the other college (2nd option, horrific college!) and see all weirdos making monkey of me and I am like, “nooooo please leave me alone, I never wanted to come here anyway!”
When I actually (in real) went to that nightmarish college (the 2nd option college, that I loathed!) to submit the application form, I was literally praying like God, please do me a favor.. never let me get back here ever again. God! I don’t want to come back here ever again! I was begging God to have mercy on me.
Hmm, so it seems like he was really listening.
Haaaah, so I did get admission in that college. And now I get these super filmy dreams in which I am getting up in the morning like a prima donna, and getting introduced as “Meet her, She’s fiya. Apparently she has done nothing extra ordinary but just assume that she has done something great and regard her as our queen bee. ”
Well. Jokes apart, after a long time.. I am actually feeling happy and fortunate. I feel truly blessed.
Maybe this is the start of my blissful journey towards a renewed life
Maybe this is the ecstasy that I had been longing for.